If you've gotten this far, you have the distance to look back on the decisions you made in life and ask yourself: What was I thinking? 

I came to Germany, I stayed here. Whart was I thinking. 

Maybe it was my way of trying to erase myself. But now it's different: I no longer want to be erased. 

My Very Last Life - my unedited thoughts about my life at and after 60 and making something out of it I could never have done earlier.