For women who have been diagnosed with breast cancer, the ubiquitous pink ribbons are another reminder that it could come back. We know. We self-exam ourselves with fear, some everyday. The ribbons are fine to remind the lucky ones to get their mammogram, the rest of us never forget the day we got the bad news. Every pink ribbon brings that moment right back.

Experience 50 host Mary Rogers takes us along for the day of her annual breast cancer check-up at a cancer center 250 miles from her home. A lot of miles to spend thinking, bargaining with God.