In this episode of the Equestrian Adult Amateur Podcast, Alexis and I are sitting down for a real life update — and it’s one of those conversations that feels a little messy, a little emotional, and very real.We talk about what’s been going on behind the scenes, especially with my young horse, Oli. After being in training while I was recovering from a broken leg, he’s come back struggling with anxiety and spookiness in a way I didn’t expect. It’s been frustrating, overwhelming, and honestly has pushed me to question what the right next step is — including the possibility of selling him.We also get into the ups and downs of training in general — from regressions in new environments to working through things like lead changes, confidence, and consistency. It’s a reminder that progress isn’t always linear, and sometimes the setbacks hit harder than expected.Outside of the barn, life has been just as full — from navigating big personal decisions, to the stress of everyday responsibilities, to trying to balance it all while still showing up for our horses.This episode is a little bit of everything:The emotional side of owning and training young horsesDealing with setbacks and uncertaintyThe pressure we put on ourselves as adult amateursAnd the reality of trying to hold it all together when things feel a little chaoticIt’s not polished. It’s not perfect. But it’s honest — and sometimes that’s exactly what we need.