Join me for a solo episode where I discuss how the recent increase in Anti Asian sentiment has opened up channels of reflection where I learn about how white supremacy has shaped my Chinese Canadian experience. I first start with revisiting childhood memories and exchanges that changed the relationship I had with my culture. From there I see how the internalized shame and loathing influenced my behaviours and where I sought validation from in my formative years into adulthood. Finally, I explain how the recent boom in grassroots media and Asian representation has allowed me to reclaim my identity and become proud of my heritage.