In this episode, Jay dives into a phrase almost every grieving heart knows too well:

“Here we go again.”

That moment when a fresh wave of grief hits, when old wounds reopen, or when the weight of loss resurfaces just when you thought you were finally steady.

Jay explores why grief often repeats itself, why the waves keep coming, and how exhausting it can feel to relive the same emotional ground. He shares candidly about his own struggle with these moments—and the subtle anxiety, self-doubt, and restlessness they bring.

But this episode doesn’t stay in the heaviness.

Jay offers a new perspective: not fighting the wave but learning to ride it back toward God’s presence. He shares a deeply personal prayer that came from a quiet moment with ABBA—an invitation into stillness, surrender, and restoration.

If you’re walking through a season of repetitive waves, this episode will remind you that God meets us in the quiet places we cannot create on our own… and that His goodness remains true even when grief circles back.

Tune in to Episode 45: “Here We Go Again.”

Here’s the prayer I mentioned:

Father,

I give myself over to your quiet.

My quiet isn’t still enough. It’s too loud, too noisy, too busy.

Too much about me.

In your quiet there is peace.

Rescue… rest… restoration.

So, I consecrate my thoughts, emotions, ideas, plans, all that

my mind, heart and soul are consumed with.

I surrender all my agendas, strategies, motivations, attitudes

and my will to you.

I give you all my concerns, worries, doubts, fears and disappointments.

I hold nothing back.

I will be still my King, and I enter your quiet with gratitude.

Thank you for the invitation!

Amen

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