Episode SummaryPublic speaking is terrifying enough—now imagine your eternal salvation is on the line. At thirteen, I stood up to Profess my faith, declaring absolute belief in front of a congregation that expected unwavering certainty. Twice a week, I performed for an audience of severe-faced judges, mastering the art of belief—whether I truly believed or not. What started as survival training became something dangerously close to strength.

In this episode, I share the story of how forced public humiliation shaped me, how the weight of religious scrutiny made me a performer, and why I can now walk across hot coals—or stand in front of a crowd with a steady voice—even if my insides are unraveling.

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