Come Aug 1 2021, I have achieved to be sober of alcohol for 1 year. The reason why I chose to do so was to mentality prep myself for my skydiving adventure to my birthday this year, the 1 year journey wasn't bad at all - I've always been able to stay committed and discipline towards all goals I set. The one thing I can say about being sober for this long was that my mind has become a lot sharper - like able to think clearer, not second guess myself and becoming more humble.   

About a week and a half left til the jump, I'm getting more and more anxious - my mind is challenging me more and more closer to date. Consistently reminding myself of how much stronger I've gotten to date since the pandemic lockdown started, my fear of heights play to factor, my fear of loss if shit hits the fan and my fear of regret if I don't end up doing it. 

The punchline is the possibility of fear dictating what I want to do, but i feel fear heightens your senses and awareness; it keeps us alert and helps in better preparation.

Sometimes fear stems from real threats, but it can also originate from imagined dangers. As we grow older, I think our imagination becomes more of a threat because of how much we can possibly loss. 

Moving forward after my 1 year mark, I'm still in debate on whether or not to continue this sober life or get back to my wild days but one things for sure is that everyone has a fear inside of them to overcome at some point in their life because without doing so will inhibit you to living life to it's fullest.