Charlie opens up about her first year of motherhood. She discovered a new appreciation and love for herself and body while pregnant. Loving herself for growing someone she loved so much already. Supported by her partner Matt and mother Charlie was able to take the deviation from her ideal birth in her stride and had a very magical labour in hospital. It was the lack of care she received when it came time to deliver her baby boy, being given an episiotomy without consent and being left alone in a confined room unable to tend to her baby that negatively impacted her birth experience and generated trauma. Charlie’s breastfeeding journey was comprised by the comprised cafe she received and it was shortly after her birth that the baby blues started to set in. Charlie was diagnosed with Postnatal depression and anxiety and struggled to leave the house, fearing something might happen to baby Marlow. She came through this period with the support of her partner and family as also the space created by her slow living lifestyle that helped her to reorder what was important to her and ways to spark joy.