In this solo episode, I reflect on the holidays — what they looked like growing up, how traditions shifted as my sister and I got older, and the profound changes that came after Marissa's passing. I share the daunting early years of navigating grief during the holiday season, the slow process of finding new traditions that felt right, and the ways my family honored both the lows and the highs along the way. I also take a moment to look back on the first year of this podcast, incorporating a family tradition of naming one low and one high at the end of each year. This episode will be the last episode in 2025 and the last one before a brief hiatus.