Episode Summary:

In this raw and deeply personal episode of Grow Yourself, Grow Your Marriage, Chris and Johnna tackle one of life's most gut-wrenching questions: If God is in control, why do I still struggle with fear? What begins as a coffee-fueled conversation about fear, faith, and calling turns into a powerful testimony of how God uses pain, loss, and uncertainty for greater purpose. From personal stories of miscarriage and financial hardship to miraculous redemption through relationships, ministry, and even a lost car at the airport — this episode will challenge your view of fear, trust, and divine control.

What You'll Hear:

• Chris' "too Christian" answer to a coach's question about fear

• Johnna's vulnerable reflection on losing their son, Lawson

• Behind-the-scenes of launching Run to the Hard and how God used tragedy for ministry

• Financial instability, leaving comfort, and launching a podcast business

• A wild testimony of how a forgotten parking space led to a salvation moment

• Why control is the root of anxiety—and how surrender unlocks peace

• Encouragement for listeners who feel stuck in fear or doubt God's plan

00:00 – What triggered this entire conversation about fear? 02:30 – Can you really live without fear if you trust God completely? 06:00 – What is Johnna most afraid of losing—and why does it matter? 09:15 – How did a tragic loss lead to launching Run to the Hard? 14:00 – Can God truly bring beauty from ashes—and even form a new family? 17:45 – What did we learn from losing Lawson and meeting Lake? 25:20 – Why did we leave Ohio without a plan—and how did God meet us? 30:00 – What happened when Chris risked it all to start a podcast business? 36:00 – Was Lucan's healing a medical recovery… or a miracle? 42:30 – What happens when you pray, "Our yes is on the table"? 47:00 – How did a lost car at the airport lead to someone hearing the gospel? 55:00 – Why does fear disappear when you know who's really in control? 1:06:00 – How can obedience unlock peace when life feels chaotic?

Mentioned Links:

https://www.youtube.com/@run2thehardpodcast

https://www.youtube.com/@familycaptain

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