Jonathan is back with a newborn, basically no sleep, and a crash course in how fast fatherhood exposes every crack in recovery. He and Pasha talk through late-night resentment, mental obsession, the "signals" that say something needs attention, and why caring for a baby can feel like practicing the actions of love on repeat—plus frozen grapes, Sprite Cherry Lime Zero, and a few brutally honest laughs. Somewhere between the meltdowns and the prayers, Jonathan lands on a pretty wild realization about how God might love him too.