Mahmood joins Pasha and Jonathan from the spring retreat in Sumas to talk about what happens when recovery gets harder instead of easier - scared sober, subtle drift, close calls, and why old-timer relapse stories hit so hard. They get into problem meetings vs. solution meetings, what it looks like when a wife is working her own program too, and the weird little moments when lust starts whispering again. Also: YouTube hooks, bad dreams, calling 50 people ugly, and a completely serious recovery lesson from Harry Potter.