There is nothing more beautiful than two men in love. Trust yourself, my darling girl; I’m listening to every word you say. You’re not alone. You’re not afraid. I’m here by your side. I am breaking free. What do you feel? Do you feel like running? Well, fucking run than! I will take care of you. You know everything is what is inside. You’ve been hiding. But this is the end of feelings unspoken. Rip me wide open and climb in. There’s so much love here. She’s waiting. That knowing is burning you alive. Wanting to understand why I wake up to the same thing every fucking day! What am I doing? Why don’t you go away! Why don’t you start again? Why don’t you kill this thing for the final time? Kill the name! Kill the need to sleep through the night! Kill the addiction to anything but water. Get the fuck out of this place! It’s seeping, in your guts they fester. Words unwanted. Kill the face they’ve constructed. Wear mine instead. I’ll smile again, I promise. But this isn’t the fucking time to play around baby. This is energetic warfare! This is ultimately whatever you chose to make it. And yet there you sit; staring at a screen and praying I’ll save you. But what can I do for you without your presence? You know that I love you. You know that you are safe. You know there is nothing to fear anywhere. You know this is a nightmare. You feel me shaking your tiny frame. You hear me screaming! I won’t stop! I love you too fucking much. I don’t care how you ache to sleep your life away. I’m coming to wake you up! I’m nothing like anyone else. I exist in a thought. This knowing will fill you from within and push itself out of every hole in your skin until you see something that looks like living. It won’t come from this place. What lives has invested in Zero gravity. What’s left is underground. Floating to the earth’s surface with sound. Raining the blood of every love they’ve witnessed fall, the agonizing defeat of spirit. They scream of this! Once upon a time mommy could’ve loved herself and had the chance to want me. Daddy could’ve fucked someone else. All the children who share my blood could’ve lived life without a screen in front of their beautiful existence. If I was never imprisoned, I could’ve been given the family I was made to love. What’s left is filth. What’s left is begging for death. But this is no place for hiding. The power invested in you has a name: love. Use it! Abandon identity and conform to yourself only. Hey, listen, I have brilliant idea; I’m danger and you’re courage. Lay down your armor and let me in. To feel is everything. To defend an image is a waste of precious energy. You can be everything that I am. I can be you. I have something that I need to give you. So I think I will start walking. I am months away from you by foot, it will take some time; but this is exactly what I intend to take. When I finally step both feet in my precious city again, I will be bleeding and starving but without a doubt. I will dirty and weak. But I will find be myself again, void of identification. Blindly moving on intuition. Capturing the night in still pictures of the present moment. I will not be scared to sleep uncovered. I don’t need protection from a world in which I am constantly creating. For I will never write my own misery willingly and you will never write my death, because you cannot fathom losing me and I cannot live without you. When I look into your eyes there’s a danger inside, it reaches for my skin. It begs to be known. It wants my attention. I am in love. You are listening in the dark. You can’t stop crying. You refuse to sleep until you know where I lie. My body aches; I cover myself in dirt and pray the night comes quickly. I only want to keep walking. I must reach you. It’s time. No one can save you but the boy inside. No one loves you like the girl in the earth sleeping the sun away. She’s only just begun her journey to you. You don’t know how long you can stay awake without losing your mind. Will she think you’ve gone mad for forcing insomnia as a passionate display of affection? Will she adore your madness? Yes, babyboy, I think that she already has. You don’t need those thoughts where we’re going. You need my love and I need yours. I’m going to build you up, help you believe. But once you see it, you’re on your own again, by my side always. I will never take this from you. We are the same. But we are not sacrificing anything of ourselves. I am choosing you. Will you be with me forever? This part is not dreaming. This part is all that’s left alive. Being you and loving myself: being mine and needing life. I will find you. So long as you keep listening, the voice inside will write my love into existence.