Dear Peter Kent

I am so sorry that my journal entry caused you distress.  I meant for it to do just the opposite.  I wanted you to feel comfortable with my family and to know that if they were stand-offish to you that it had nothing to do with who you are, but only with their own fears.  Their distrust is in my ability to love them and to love someone else.   They can't come out and say that it is me they do not trust or that they fear they will not be needed if I find all I could ever want in someone else.  They probably can't even say it to themselves.  How selfish would it be to admit that you wanted someone to need you so badly that you would wish them a life of dependency on you?  This is the sickness that I meant I didn't even want to think about.

 

I have spent a life time with these people and I know how they react to anyone who it seems I could be happy with.  I didn't want you to think that they did not accept you for any reason other than the fact that they could see you as making me very happy.  Jamie always felt like I loved Don more than her and I can see why she wouldn't want to feel that way again, but it's part of growing up and moving on, and she will come to know that you can love more than one person and that it is a different sort of love.  It will be an important lesson for her.

 

I must have made it very clear that I was deeply in love with you and that my happiness was not going to be decided by popular vote.  I told them both that I was involved with you because it is what I want and that it is high time I get what I want out of life.  Even though I was firm on that stance, I went further to let them know that if I am happier, they will find their lives much more enhanced.  Attitudes were far different today.  I suspect they will still be dealing with their fears, at some level, for a while, but time will alleviate those.  I just need you to know that their adjustment to the situation is scary for them and that there is nothing lacking in you.  Love, Carole

 

From Peter A. Kent:  Thank you for that beautiful explanation.  You are so filling.   I hope that I can fill any doubts you have about what I may feel as well as you just did.  - Peter Kent

 

 

I've been writing my story since I was able to write, but when the media goes to share it, they only choose the parts that fit their idea of what will generate views.  If I'm going to share my story, it should be the whole story.  The titles are the dates things happened. If you have any interest in who I really am please start at the beginning of this playlist: http://savethecats.org/

 

I know there will be people who take things out of context and try to use them to validate their own misconception, but you have access to the whole story.  My hope is that others will recognize themselves in my words and have the strength to do what is right for themselves and our shared planet. 

 

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