Dear Peter Kent,  Something you said yesterday troubled me, but I was in a rush most of the day and didn't take time to think it through until the drive to church this morning.  You said that your past concerns were of little consequence compared to my trials and I believe that your reason for saying that was your way of telling me that you acknowledged the nightmare I have lived through and were telling me that you are sympathetic to my pain.  I appreciate that.

 

I don't want you to feel like what you have been through was any less traumatic. When you lose something you love, whether it be a person or a way of life, it changes you, the way fire changes gold.  It makes no difference what the temperature of the fire if we are melted in the process.  You and I have both been purified by the experience and are made capable of blending into a more perfect creation.  There is so much beauty in this life we are creating and I am so happy to be a part of you.

 

I was also thinking about how we express our love for each other in our love-making.  I was thinking about how your mother expressed her love for her family by cleaning and how Don understood love if it came in the form of someone cooking for him and how we give what we want to get.  We are so fortunate that both of us seek intimacy as the feed back that says we are loved.  I never really thought about this before.  It seems pretty important.  If I gave you gifts to show my love, but you only understood that love was being shown if I were cleaning house for you, we would both feel that we were not getting the love we were worthy of, when in fact, the person may love us greatly and just not know how to effectively show us.  If the stars have set our paths, there are lots of things we may not agree on, but I think our agreement on this issue of what demonstrates our love is crucial.  As long as we know we are loved, safe and secure, how difficult could anything else be?  - Love, Carole

 

From Peter A. Kent:

 

Carole, that was so beautifully said.   All of it.  I agree 200%.  We have been molded for each other, I thank God for that.  More importantly, your understanding and appreciation are as much a gift as is the flesh and tangibles we share so often.   Everything I do these days I do with joy because of us.  A big part of US is you.  As I repeatedly say, it takes a receiver tuned to the correct frequency to receive the energy put out by the transmitter.  You miss nothing; you are beyond my biggest prayers for a partner: what you are, what you do, how you relate to others, how you express yourself, how you receive me.   My request is that I have two breaks with you, each about 30 minutes long before the sun goes down so that we can be one up on Cruise and contain it in this ongoing day which ends at sunset.   You have all my love, however, I love to express and receive it in that manner.  - Peter Kent

 

I've been writing my story since I was able to write, but when the media goes to share it, they only choose the parts that fit their idea of what will generate views.  If I'm going to share my story, it should be the whole story.  The titles are the dates things happened. If you have any interest in who I really am please start at the beginning of this playlist: http://savethecats.org/

 

I know there will be people who take things out of context and try to use them to validate their own misconception, but you have access to the whole story.  My hope is that others will recognize themselves in my words and have the strength to do what is right for themselves and our shared planet. 

 

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