Howie Writes After I’ve Told Him About Bob Solomon

Howie writes Carole: 15 Jan 2003 16:23:00 -0500 To: Carole

From: Howard Baskin  Subject: a few thoughts and wishes for you

 

I'm so used to getting an email from you the morning after our evenings that it was strange, albeit understandable, not to have one.  But I guess our situations are somewhat different today as you pursue an exciting new road while I regroup.  This is probably one of those emails that you hit send and then later wince and wonder why you sent it, but these thoughts have been circling though my mind today incessantly and very selfishly maybe the only way to make them stop is to send them to you.  I hope you don't mind.

 

With the many challenges you have faced and overcome, and the wonderful contribution you have made to the world in devoting yourself to the cats and the kindness you have shown other people that you have cared for, you more than anyone I can think of deserve happiness.  I really hope the man you described can do that for you.  I mean that very sincerely.  It sounds like there is something very unique there and I think it makes sense for you to follow your instincts and heart.

 

I believe one of my early emails to you pointed out that we had no way to predict the future and all we could really do was commit to be honest with each other.  You cannot imagine how much I value and respect the fact that you honored that.  It is very rare.  I must confess to feeling a bit silly, because I wrote it out of concern that you were getting too enthusiastic too quickly, not imagining that I would get upstaged by a rival.  (I'm actually smiling here for the first time today - I think this prediction matches my ability to predict stocks, eh?)

 

I'm sorry to have made you cry.  I don't know with the wine and the emotion I was feeling if I expressed myself very well. I hope you understand that it is the very good feelings I have for you that make the change in the situation not work for me.

 

You made many wonderful "minutes" for me in the last 10 weeks and nothing can ever take that away.  I was and continue to be in awe of the remarkable peace I found in your company and in your arms.  When I said "be friends" I meant it, assuming you would like that.  May need a little time first though.  And finally, .... I've owned that tool belt since 1972, wise guy!  Borrow it, indeed!  (Another smile).

 

With wonderful feelings for you that will outlast the sadness I feel now, Howie

 

I've been writing my story since I was able to write, but when the media goes to share it, they only choose the parts that fit their idea of what will generate views.  If I'm going to share my story, it should be the whole story.  The titles are the dates things happened. If you have any interest in who I really am please start at the beginning of this playlist: http://savethecats.org/

 

I know there will be people who take things out of context and try to use them to validate their own misconception, but you have access to the whole story.  My hope is that others will recognize themselves in my words and have the strength to do what is right for themselves and our shared planet.  

 

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Music (if any) from Epidemic Sound (http://www.epidemicsound.com) This video is for entertainment purposes only and is my opinion.