One White Rose in a Dozen Red Ones

Carole writes Howie 8 Feb 2003 18:37:30 EST 

 

Dear Howie,  You are the dearest, sweetest man.  I've been on the road all day and before my phone died Jamie called to say a box that looked like flowers had arrived and was driving all the volunteers crazy wondering who sent them to their "mom".  They are beautiful and your choice of arrangement touched me deeply.  I will be thinking of you all the way to Ruskin and back tonight.  Of course, I would have been thinking of you anyway, but this makes the thoughts all the lovelier.  Thank

you.  I love you (and if you don't believe me, I'll SHOW you when you get home) Love, Carole

 

Howie writes Carole 08 Feb 2003 20:38:02 

 

Sounds like I better take my vitamins tomorrow morning.  Look forward to seeing you whenever you get there.  Drive safely with that load! - Howie

 

Carole writes Howie 8 Feb 2003 22:53:37 EST Subject: Ruskin To: [email protected]

 

Dear Howie,  I had the choice of driving the spay trailer to Ruskin tonight or being there and unloaded before 6 am, so I went tonight.  The ride went well, and I only had a little trouble getting out from under it.  I am just thoroughly wiped out though and won't last two minutes once I hit the sack.  I just wanted to thank you again for your thoughtfulness.  The roses are just gorgeous and the arrangement is absolutely breathtaking.  Driving home with them in the front seat of the truck they were quivering the same way you make me shiver in ecstasy.  You are the greatest! - Carole

 

Poem for Howie Inspired by Roses

 

Carole writes Howie 10:53 PM 2/8/03:

 

The Gift of Your Love

 

I miss you when you're far away

Or just across this town

I miss you more, when e'er my day

Has been less up than down

 

I long for you and cannot wait

To be with you once more!

The roses that came to my gate

From you, whom I adore

 

Were fragrant sweet and petal soft

Just like your tender kiss

Reminding me how strong and oft

Of you I reminisce

 

The kindness and the love you show

Mean more than words can tell

I wonder if you truly know

The passion you compel?

 

Are you so good for your own sake

'Cause you can't help but be?

Or is the goodness I partake

A gift from you to me?

 

For every kiss and sweet caress

Feels like the World you've giv'n

Not only momentary bliss

But a piece of heaven!

 

For Howie Baskin

By Carole Ann Stairs 2/9/03

 

Howie writes Carole 09 Feb 2003 08:21:49

I woke this morning out of a dream in which we were simply standing without clothes and I was gently running my hands over you.  It was not even really a sexual dream in a way.  I was just enjoying touching you.  This dream was so incredibly vivid that I honestly was startled when I awoke and for a moment simply could not believe it was a dream.  It was more like it was real and the kind of astonishment I would have if you suddenly vanished into thin air.  Which, now that I think about it, it occurs to me you may actually be able to do that and have not yet told me? :-)

 

I'm glad you like the roses. - Howie

 

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