"If He Had Been with Me" by Laura Nowlin is a young adult novel published in 2013.

The story follows Autumn, a high school student who has been best friends with Finny since childhood. They drift apart as they get older, but Autumn can't help but wonder what would have happened if they had stayed together. Throughout the novel, Autumn navigates the complexities of friendships, romantic relationships, and family dynamics while struggling with her feelings for both her boyfriend, Jamie, and her lost best friend, Finny. The story explores themes of love, loss, and the choices that shape our lives

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