Not one Thanksgiving photo Jamie and I have been on a scrapbooking binge and have dragged out every physical photo we own into one spot to reorganize them into books with pages of themes. Last night I did a page on my mother and the theme was eating meals together. Since it was so close to Thanksgiving, I was on the lookout for common holiday foods and can’t tell that any of the meals were centered around Thanksgiving, or Christmas, for that matter. More than 60 years of pictures and no one took one of a holiday meal? Seems so odd. It also seems odd for it to be Thanksgiving and family not be at the center of it this year. Our emotions were just too raw the Thanksgiving after Chuck and Mom announced they were leaving us last summer for Jamie, Howie and I to want to be with them. My mother had texted me on the evening of Thanksgiving last year, asking for a pre nuptial agreement because she believed Fred was going to propose. This year she and Fred are having a big shindig at the Keystone lake house and we were all invited but Howie said he can’t stand to be around Chuck so he’s going to celebrate with his college friend, Willow Houben and her kids instead. He said he’d come with me, if I insisted, but I don’t want him to have to pretend he’s not hurt. Jamie wouldn’t say if she and Victor were coming until I pinned her down yesterday. She looked so sad, but said she really didn’t want to be with them, so I told her I totally understand, because I do. My stomach has been in knots for weeks about this. I really don’t want to have to put on a smiling face and act like my heart isn’t broken. I was listening to a podcast yesterday where Jesse Itzler said, “You don’t have as much time with your loved ones as you think you might. If you’re thinking that your parents could live another 10 years, but you only see them twice a year, you don’t have another 10 years with them. You have 20 visits. “ That really hit home for me. I used to see Mom a couple times a day and now I see her a couple times a year. Today will be hard. I’m crying already, but I can’t miss out on what little time I have with her. Hi, I’m Carole Baskin and I’ve been writing my story since I was able to write, but when the media goes to share it, they only choose the parts that fit their idea of what will generate views. These are my views and opinions. If I'm going to share my story, it should be the whole story. The titles are the dates things happened. If you have any interest in who I really am please start at the beginning of this playlist: http://savethecats.org/ I know there will be people who take things out of context and try to use them to validate their own misconception, but you have access to the whole story. My hope is that others will recognize themselves in my words and have the strength to do what is right for themselves and our shared planet. You can help feed the cats at no cost to you using Amazon Smile! Visit BigCatRescue.org/Amazon-smile You can see photos, videos and more, updated daily at BigCatRescue.org Check out our main channel at YouTube.com/BigCatRescue Music (if any) from Epidemic Sound (http://www.epidemicsound.com) This video is for entertainment purposes only and is my opinion. Closing graphic with permission from https://youtu.be/F_AtgWMfwrk