your stories are a gift. your time is a gift. your attention is a gift. and when you share generously with others it can feel like you’re making a connection. but over time, if there isn’t reciprocity, it can start to feel bad and you realize how one sided it’s been. i don’t think that every action requires a response in kind, and we don’t give gifts expecting a return, but when you receive very little it’s hard to keep trying. i’m thinking about where i want to put my energy. and i’m not yet sure how to make that decision, but my energy is limited. and although i feel pulled strongly towards new connections and excited about exploring possibilities, i also want to be better at celebrating my existing connections. particularly the ones that make the effort. and in the same way that i don’t expect every connection i investigate to be mutual, i shouldn’t respond just to respond. i could simply prioritize the ones that i know already feel good and save some energy to continue exploring others. i’m writing this here, and i’m going to try, but damn that allure of potential. perhaps it’s not so simple. DOWNLOAD/STREAM RECORDING 00:00 (intro by omar) 00:20 LOS JAMBOS “Chico formal” Chicos formales 02:12 The Hecks “Flash” My Star 07:00 Options “Easy Try” Pacific Notion II 08:53 ILL “Bus Shelter” We Are ILL 13:34 Simon Joyner “Yellow Jacket” Pocket Moon 17:22 Shana Falana “Who We Are” Darkest Light 20:42 Dogbreth “Took My Time” Ever Loving 23:40 MOURN “Via” Mixtape 28:03 Ex-Void “Only One” Only One 30:37 HOT SHORTS “Don’t Stop Me If You’ve Heard This One Before” I Understand And I Wish To Continue 33:12 The reds, pinks and purples “Anxiety art” Anxiety art 35:21 San Cha “Soy Tuya” La Luz de la Esperanza 40:44 Banana “Tiny Bones” Post-Grunge Revival 44:15 Public Practice “Extra-Ordinary” Disposable & Extra-Ordinary 47:52 Water From Your Eyes “Adeleine” Somebody Else’s Song 52:05 Amaringo “Sacred” I Woke Up This Morning After a Dream 56:46 coastal car “world” are you scared to get happy? 59:34 Snail Polish “best you” im worth somthing 62:54 Allumette “Somnifuge” Soleil du Gouffre 65:56 Cop Circles “Big Business Monkey” Vacation for Hurt 69:33 J Camden “Hold Your Breath” The View from Inside the Sun 72:13 The Gonks “I’m A Leaker” Five Things You Didn’t Know About The Gonks 73:35 Charly Bliss “Supermoon” Supermoon 76:39 Telecult “Two Kinds of Escape” Phases 78:58 Panoramic “Bug Bites” Spiders // Bug Bites 82:27 Mallard “Wubalubadubdub” Believing in Ghosts