Six weeks off Lamotrigine. Antidepressant reduced. And suddenly the version of me I thought I'd dealt with is back in the kitchen losing it over the washing.

This isn't a breakdown. It's information.

This week I'm talking about what actually happens to your nervous system when the medication that was holding things together starts to change. The mum rage that comes with it. The overstimulation. The guilt of feeling like you've gone backwards when actually you're just doing it without the scaffolding for the first time.

And I end with a phone call that reminded me exactly why I show up every single week.

If you've ever felt like you were doing so well and then something shifted and you were back to a version of yourself you didn't recognise, this one's for you.

In this episode:

• Six weeks off a mood stabiliser and what it's actually felt like in my body
• Why mum rage isn't a character flaw, it's a capacity problem
• The mental load that was always there, just quieter with medication holding it
• What it looks like to start looking after yourself first, even when the family gets packet pasta
• The phone call that is my whole entire why

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