“We saw him on a scan just before I delivered and I said to my husband, I just want to see him one more time alive. I want to see him and he’s happy and I feel like I’m protecting him. I think that’s the hardest thing about delivering a baby that’s not alive... it’s that you feel like you’ve failed but also that your body is its protection so in a way, once you’re out, I can’t protect you anymore.” 

Today's episode is dedicated to Charlie Mills who on 16 February 2018 was born still. Charlie's mum Luce wants to share hers and Charlie's story today - and it's an important one to tell and to hear. Luce hopes that by sharing her story she may be able to help someone feel less alone if they too experience the devastation that is a stillborn child. She also wants people to have hope that if this does happen, you can go on to have a healthy baby after loss. This episode is a tribute to beautiful Charlie Mills in honour of his memory. Please decide if this episode is right for you to listen to. 

If you’d like to donate to the charities that Luce mentioned, the details are below: 

Bears of hope 

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