You may be cut out for an open relationship!  Never thought I'd be supportive of this type of relationship because I was raised to believe that monogamy was the best way to go and everything else was toxic, but currently I believe that monogamy may not be for everyone. So many people have trouble functioning in monogamous relationships and in this episode I propose the idea that maybe a monogamous relationship is not for you.  Maybe you are amongst the privileged in a sense that you should be free as a bird, maybe not free as a bird but sorta lol.  There's a possibility that you've been single for 20 years with little short flings and sexual experiences because you aren't to be in a monogamous relationship.  Maybe some other form is for you!  Maybe you don't belong to anyone but God!