32. New Skin

I woke up one day and decided to change my skin.*

I’m sure that sounded crazy so I’ll say it all again.

I woke up… one day and decided to change my skin.

Not as much my idea, as that it grew out from within.

It seems new skin was required

because the old had become tired.

A frame of reference turned brittle

inside a paradigm too little.

Or picture this idea I am spitting

as an analogy like… knitting.

But the fabrics random where we’re sitting

and the patches we are sewing are all ill-fitting.

Or how we eat and drink too hearty

when we’re with friends or at a party.

Because a vice grows from a crutch

when we reach for it too much.

Ok… apologies for my ramble.

Thanks for dealing with that preamble,

While I get back to the bottom line

We need new skin to hold new wine.

Fresh capacity designed to hold a consciousness Divine.

I noticed a new consciousness…

Let’s call that new wine.

When I released the incessant fears

of an uncontrolled future space and time.

So old skin - I’ll summarize as the egoic-mind.

And if I tried to contain this New

along with the egoic burdens I usually hold onto.

Then projected shadows I would spew,

and all my ends would come unglued.

So, I resolved to “just let go…

I woke up one day… and decided to kill my ego”.**

To shed my old skin!

Now that’s some ice that’s thin!

To “just let go”.

As an exchange.

Of all I “could not hold onto.

And exchange it all, for a hope…

That lies beyond the blue”.***

But as a child of this big-blue

That’s a hard thing to do.

How do we shed the egoic-mind?

Within this myth called space and time?

I can’t lie. It is a constant struggle

to shift my awareness

from habitually imagined trouble.

But at the same time

this new wine

has been so freeing.

To finally live out

“In Christ we live and move and have our Being”.****

*Jesus of Nazareth, Mark 2:21-22

**Sturgill Simpson, “Just Let Go”. Metamodern Sounds in Country Music 2014.

***Josh Garrels, “Beyond the Blue”. Love and War and the Sea In Between 2011.

****Acts 17:28

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