In this episode, Matt, Steve, and Jessica will dive back into Steve and Jessica’s journal entries from the period when they had patched things up to try and give dating another try. They were each going through a very tough time because things were not working out as they had expected. They go back to June 10, 2012, when Steve was journaling about his spiritual struggles. He believed that he had lost connection with God due to his inability to stop pursuing a gay lifestyle, and he used to act out all the time to make himself feel better even though some of the time it would only make him feel a lot of turmoil.

In the following journal entry, he talked about being at a porn addiction support group, and thinking about how he was tirelessly trying to overcome the temptations to go be with a man, and how hard it was because everywhere he turned he saw happy gay couples. Despite having Jessica and Penny by his side, he felt so alone. At around the same time, Jessica had a major breakdown when she realized that she was being harsh towards Steve because he was not sexually attracted to her anymore.   

Despite those challenges, they were both being very loving and supportive of each other. They will continue on sharing their journal entries describing all that was happening back then, and talking about all the valuable lessons they learned from their experiences during that time. This is going to be a very insightful episode on a lot of life and relationship issues that affect a lot of us, so you won’t wanna miss it. Stay tuned! 

Highlights of the discussion: 

• The dark gold in Steve and Jessica’s journals (01:02)
• The detriment in believing that we must do certain things to the letter to receive and be worthy of God’s love (02:38)
• The pain in not giving ourselves credit for what we are doing (06:10)
• Steve’s longing for a healthy, authentic relationship (08:34)
• How miserable Steve was for Jessica to be with (12:52)
• The old bedroom in the old house (20:50)
• The actions and lifestyle that led Steve into depression (25:58)
• The challenge of determining when enough is enough (29:05)
• How Steve and Jessica were both waiting for each other to be done (34:46)
• To thy known self be true: Jessica’s rebellion tattoo (38:57)
• The day they finally ended things and how right it felt for both of them (44:45)
• The mistakes that were part of the journey and the positive impact they had (50:28)

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