We begin in the "Diary" episodes to cover selected entries from Anthony's personal journal which he began about 8 years prior to this recording. The purpose is to investigate behavioral evolution over time, and more importantly to dissect the pain that fuels it. In this episode we hear about the initial efforts at deliberately designing a character beyond the negative tendencies implicitly absorbed during a family's lifetime. It closes with a story where, at Christmas time, Anthony struggled to perform the simple task of purchasing chocolates at a Lindt store - out of fear and mental incapability.