In this emotional Lonely Clam segment, I remember my brother Isaiah, who passed away five years ago. He was my Irish twin, Aries brother, and soulmate. I share the pain of my loss, my journey through grief and sobriety, and the reality of the hardships Isaiah faced in his life. Featuring input from his loved ones, we celebrate his humor and love for anyone he has ever met. This episode is raw and deeply personal, and it touches on heavy themes that may be triggering for some, including suicide and drug addiction. I do not own the rights to the music or lyrics featured in this episode.

00:00 Introduction and Isaiah

01:59 Memories of Isaiah

03:14 Isaiah's Musical Talent

04:15 Social Media and Grief

08:14 Sibling Bond and Responsibility

21:29 Struggles with Addiction

30:20 Final Moments and Reflections

45:30 Coping with Loss and Unwanted Messages

46:24 Navigating Grief and Unsolicited Advice

49:09 The Struggle with Suicidal Thoughts

59:19 Connecting with Isaiah Through Mediums

01:02:53 Family Reflections and Regrets

01:04:06 Isaiah's Personal Belongings and Journals

01:08:36 The Impact of Isaiah's Death and Personal Growth

01:19:17 Memories and Reflections from Family Members

01:27:53 The Early Stages of Grief and Sobriety

01:30:23 Empathy and Vulnerability

01:31:03 A Turning Point: Quitting the sex Industry

01:31:54 Panic Attacks and Overstimulation

01:35:10 Coping Mechanisms and Healing

01:37:20 Spirituality and Dreams

01:43:56 Memories and Reflections

01:52:02 Humor and Lighthearted Moments

01:59:02 A Tribute to Isaiah

02:08:58 Final Thoughts and Gratitude