A lot of this came out as just just random crazy thoughts but I thought I'd be honest and just go ahead and share. I almost deleted this whole episode. Because I thought that maybe you just wouldn't want to hear it. I tried to restart And outline and all kinds of stuff. Which in the end overwhelmed me and I gave up for a few days. Then I decided I should just go ahead and share. My point for making this Podcast cast is not for me I'm trying trying to showcase the glory of God in my life in my Struggles. As Paul said in my weakness you are strong.