Healing is weird. I’m healed in some places, healing in others, and there are still places that hurt.

People say, “Trust the process.” But I’ve learned that when life gets real bad, platitudes cannot hold you up. I don’t trust the process. I trust God. And I learned to trust Him in the hardest seasons, when I had no strength left and discovered that He wasn’t just calling me forward. He was on the floor with me, lifting me and carrying me when I couldn’t move.

Eventually, I realized something: the Creator of the cosmos was betting on me. So, cracked shield and all, I decided to lock the heck on in.

Now strength is coming back. Creativity is coming back. Laughter is coming back. And after walking that obstacle course with God, I can see some traps I couldn’t see before.

So if you don’t trust the process, it’s okay.

But if you can learn to trust God…

Scriptural foundation: Proverbs 3:5–6; Psalm 23:4; Isaiah 46:4; Philippians 1:6.

Season 2, Episode 2: Forgiveness

A reflection on what forgiveness actually looks like when the wound was real, the debt is real, and the anger does not disappear overnight.

Forgiveness is not pretending nothing happened. It is not a reset. It is not reconciliation, and it does not automatically restore access.

Sometimes forgiveness means handing the same hurt back to God again and again and trusting Him with justice instead of spending your life trying to collect the debt yourself.

Scripture references:

Matthew 18:21–22 — Jesus teaches Peter to forgive again and again.

Romans 12:19 — “Vengeance is mine; I will repay, saith the Lord.”

Psalm 51:10 — “Create in me a clean heart, O God; and renew a right spirit within me.”

Forgiveness does not mean you don’t owe me. It means I’m not coming to collect anymore.

Season 2: Healed & Healing

Episode 1: Let’s Go

After making some of the hardest decisions of my life, one question kept coming:

Are your actions even doing anything?

I looked around, and honestly? Sometimes I couldn’t tell.

But Scripture reminded me that what one person does matters. We plant. We water. God gives the growth. And the work God begins in us? He is faithful to complete it.

My job is not to do God’s job.

My job is to say yes.

Search me. Teach me. Show me.

And when He shows me?

Move.

Let’s go.

Scripture references:

Romans 5:18–191 Corinthians 3:6Philippians 1:6

A reflection on spiritual warfare, persistence, fear, and learning that endurance is sometimes the greatest form of resistance.

Scripture references:

James 4:7 — “Resist the devil, and he will flee from you.”

Ephesians 6:11 — “Put on the full armor of God.”

A reflection on exhaustion, spiritual warfare, healing, and finally feeling safe enough to rest in God.

Scripture reference: Psalm 91 — “He who dwells in the shelter of the Most High shall remain secure and rest in the shadow of the Almighty.”

A reflection on boundaries, discernment, healing, and realizing that access to your life is a privilege, not an entitlement.

Sometimes growth looks like closing doors that should have never been left open.

Scripture references:

Proverbs 4:23 — “Guard your heart, for out of it flow the issues of life.”

Matthew 7:15 — “Beware of false prophets, who come to you in sheep’s clothing but inwardly are ravenous wolves.”

A reflection on acceptance, grief, mental health, boundaries, and learning to stop negotiating with reality.

Scripture references:

Matthew 7:16 — “You will know them by their fruits.”

Psalm 27:1 — “The Lord is my light and my salvation; whom shall I fear?”

A reflection on boundaries, accountability, healing, and how healthy love can expose wounds that dysfunction once normalized.

Scripture reference: Psalm 139:23 — “Search me, O God, and know my heart.”

A reflection on motherhood, self-trust, healing from negative self-talk, and realizing that “enough” was never perfection.

Scripture reference: Proverbs 23:7 — “As a man thinketh in his heart, so is he.”

Healing sounds a lot like replacing condemnation and resignation with truth.

A reflection on motherhood, emotional regulation, overstimulation, and the quiet faithfulness of continuing to show up with love through hard moments.

Scripture reference: Matthew 28:20 — “Lo, I am with you always, even unto the end of the world.”