We’re taught that the gospel brings joy. So what do we do when we’re doing all the things and the joy isn’t there? In this episode, we sit with the quiet equation a lot of us absorbed — if I were really living the gospel, I’d be happy, so if I’m not, I must be doing it wrong — and ask what it costs us. We talk about joy and sorrow as companions rather than enemies, the costumes we wear to church, and what it might mean to walk toward joy without faking it.