"I think I just wanted people to see that I was in pain. I couldn't say that. I couldn't say, 'Hi, I'm Becky, I'm in pain. This is me being thinner than I should be so this is what pain means to me.'"

- Becky S

This week on Love Your Bodd we explore the importance of reaching out when you are in pain. Verbalizing your feelings can be incredibly difficult and can manifest in your mental health in all sorts of negative ways. For Becky, her inability to verbalize her pain led to an eating disorder. This week's guest Becky is incredibly open about her struggles with Anorexia, Exercise Addiction, Recovery, and most recently Bodybuilding. Listen to hear her talk about the winding road that is recovery and how lifting weights has both helped her recover but on the flip side, how competing in her first ever bikini competition brought back some of her disordered thinking.

**Trigger Warning** This episode can be potentially triggering for anyone who is struggling with an eating disorder, has struggled with one in the past, or who is in recovery. See below (Born This Way Links) for helpful resources.

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Becky's written note on Anorexia to Recovery: https://www.facebook.com/notes/becky-silliness/anorexia-battle-to-recovery/10151503704631028/

Becky's Images from the Bikini Comp: facebook.com/beckysillz

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