Editing this, I felt so much shame & thought about not sharing it. I was afraid that people would not want anything to do with me & would look down on me. That's worse case scenario but it's better than pretending that none of it happened. I was inspired to share this because it might help someone pick themselves up or avoid my situation. The possibility of that is greater than my fear of backlash. I know that its not likely for people to turn against me, and its more likely for my action to improve even one person's life.

This is a deeply personal episode & I hope that it inspires & motivates you to take control of your life & heal whats screaming to be healed.