Exactly two months after my mum died suddenly in 2022, I got on a plane and backpacked around Europe for three months. This journal-style episode shares what it really looked like to carry fresh grief across countries, friendships, and moments of unexpected joy.

Some of what you’ll hear is read directly from my personal journal entries from that time - raw, unfiltered, and written when my nervous system was still in shock.

This is not a story about travel fixing grief. It’s a story about guilt, love, boundaries, family support, and learning how to let joy and devastation exist in the same body.

If you’ve ever wondered whether it’s “too soon” to live again after loss, this episode is for you.

***Please note: This episode includes discussions of death, grief, and emotional distress.