There used to be a time when I was mad at Our Creator. I was significantly younger than I am now.

“I’m not saying any prayers, what good does it do?”

Because I was so young and had limited life experience, God Our Father and I decided that I needed to Learn through the Lessons borne from my mistakes so that I could learn discernment.

I learned that in all the prayers and magick in the World, across All Paths of Seventy Two Nations, the presence of God Our Father is inhabited by the Foundation of the prayers created and spoken with the purposeful intention of planting a seed of Belief that You of Me of I of They of Them of U.S. will FEEL the intentional love left behind for U.S. to live today.

Why would I reject love left intentionally for me to Know that through many grains of Time Our Creation is present by Words left for Me of You of They of Them of U.S. for today?

I had to learn through the discernment of the most painful Lessons when God Our Father is teaching me the difference between Hell on Earth spoken through harm to Me using blasphemy and the Light of Creation as intended. Many times I didn’t want to Believe that God as One was showing me that those I thought loved me didn’t love me at all.

Many times this is where I would get hung up in Suffering. I didn’t want to see the forest for the trees, and don’t I get so pissed off when that happened?

I’d wander around, “Why am I so unhappy? God, what is wrong with me?!”

Isn’t it funny how quickly I assign myself as the reason for the bad behavior of others? What an Ego trip, man!

To Live is not to Suffer. God Our Father, Who Art in Heaven, has assured me of this.

So, I can only translate this to mean that if I am chronically Suffering in Spirit, I must be in the wrong place, huh? Sometimes, we feel like we are suffering because God is showing us where We as Humans won’t be safe and thrive as the seed of intention planted.

I have to learn that though I may love those around me, if I find I am reaching outside of Me for Salvation on a regular basis by way of troubled relationships with substances and behaviors not good for my Soul, it is my Sign to reach safer shores because I am not in the right boat and I am rowing by myself while others are sitting on the bench.

To Live is not to Suffer. I just have to keep reminding myself.

Amen. 🙏

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