God! has full control of what I say, either God is or he is not when I thank him for the wrong stupid stuff that comes out of my mouth he can work with it. He is gone. I’m stuck in this loop and cycle. How do I get out first it was the loop of anger, resentment, then drinking and problems And now losing Faith! but how do I retain fate by thanking God I’m a misfit Thanking God! junk comes out of my mouth Thanking God!. I did that like if it was a good thing. Give it a try you’ll love it. You’ll relax It’s not about you. It’s about learning.