Abstract Annie

Just a quick touch in with my feelings, I was amazed at the growth I’ve made since last year this time. No tears today! Wow will I soon forget about the 20 years plus of depression. A day of happiness feels amazing !

This podcast/video will be a continuation of the first, I will be trying my best to explain what it feels like to be an empath and also briefly talking about the affects the narcissist had on me, which I will be expanding on in a later video, please do understand that much of what we go through especially those that lack confidence and trust In themselves may find it hard to express or share with you. It is important within society that we learn to be accepting and that doesn’t mean we have to join or indulge in said acceptance but your only duty and person to mould and shape should be yourself anyone else is an individual in there own right and should therefore be treated as such. It can cause an individual much harm if forced to withhold aspects of themselves from others but especially from themselves. (P.s I’m not discussing children here) but still they are individuals as well. Much love Annie x

In this video I will attempt to describe what it feels like to be an empath. An empath can read another’s energy both in near proximity or from afar, an empath needs to develop self confidence and trust of their internal navigation system! For many empaths this can be a difficult process especially in this modern era in which we dwell. I will be integrating many aspects of myself in this channel in an attempt to give equal acknowledgement to the varying aspects of myself - Annie x

I always beat myself up about wasting time,especially now that I can truly feel that I am in recovery. Today I was finding it difficult to find something interesting to watch on youtube, I almost started to give myself negative mind chatter about it. I had a flash back in which I remembered myself crying and instinctively I resonated with that because that is how I was used to being most days. I had to ask myself which is better? Crying or watching the video I was watching!

Finding it hard and trying to process the fact that I am different I have changed and as a result I can no longer accommodate the needs of others as much as I have done my whole life as an empath and that includes my family. There’s a niggling inside me that wants to confirm so that we are a happy family. But how can that happen if they want to fix the flowers? Then simply rearrange them when I, I want to fix the roots, for without them there will be no flowers. I deal with the root cause of the issue, not the surface. I will not smile in vain!

My ex getting in contact always seems to create an opening for old internal emotional battles to enfold within, my mind is moving on clearly, however it seems we are still connected vibrationally. This I feel is true for all of us hence the reason why it is beneficial-to understand how your mind works, try to interpret your feelings via a deep analysis of self I.e a diary or journal written or recorded, you don’t even have to listen to it straight away, but to make changes needed to live a wholesome and holistic life, one must make it their personal mission to get to know self. This will allow you the freedom to live a life personally accustomed to your needs, desires and wants, and therefore will make the dictation of society of others non impressionable on your internal self!

I was feeling alone, scared, and stuck in a dream like state. He claimed to want to be with me, and I felt I deserved happiness after all this time. But he didn’t love me, he didn’t care, he only desired one aspect of me not all of me. all I could think of is him finding his true love! Which I believe he did in the end!

I was triggered this evening, by a phone call from a very close family member, our relationship has been very distant of lately and it’s hard to be myself around this person any longer. This is truly significant because this person was the closest person to me, so the distance almost feels as if a piece of me is dead/gone. I know that trust is important and I know that even more so now, for you see because the trust was breached within our relationship I can’t be myself and I cannot consciously overwrite said feeling. Not to mention the fact that I have denied many aspects of my persona In order to keep peace within the relationship, which I guess I can no longer do. It’s much easier to be freely yourself and to learn to embrace the parts of you that may offend others than it is to live a lie and to deny these aspects of self that make you so uniquely you. It’s so sad because the fact that you are so close should make it that much easier to communicate with you! but unfortunately it doesn’t.

An introduction of myself, and a little overview of what my podcast will be about.