Addiction, Habit Energy, Craving and Clinging, Attachments; the entire breath of Shakyamuni’s teachings is to intervene in our Samsaric addiction to things and our running away from personal responsibility and to reclaim our innate full control of our life condition and experience. This is Awakening. Be mindful of your loss of ”reason” or depressions and thoughts of self-harm! Our Buddhist practice is built on a sound mind. Shakyamuni prohibited the use of intoxicants for precisely this reason. If you are in crisis, you must reach out to professionals with the ability to return you to your reason and ”normal” mind. From there your practice will be successful.