I wanted to showcase the two big love stories of my life. To contrast the two men who's lives impacted mine in the biggest ways. One through abuse and mistreatment and one through true love and acceptance. I think it's important to know it's OK to have expectations for love and sex and people.  I think it's important to talk about how vital it is to love and accept yourself so that the door for accepting real love from someone is completely open in your life.  And I think it's important to know that waiting for real love from the right person is the best way to love yourself. 
P.S. You can hear my fan in the background in parts. And of course I cry again. So the recording quality might not be the best but I'll just shrug my shoulders and say "oh well". Honesty is my forever goal. Authenticity. Not perfection. So hopefully that message will speak loudest. Always.