How I can admit I'm not going to get a mother of the year award, for any year as a momma. Listen how I reconcile this to me, this season, this reality. Understanding, this heart space, remain in love, no matter how far off, how unrecognizable others may be in to us, stay in the state of love, stay in the focus of love, the good, live in good-ville. Stay away from self abuse, from our own thinking.