After years of hiding, Judd was ready to come out of the closet and explore his sexuality. He met an older man who was grounded and ready for a relationship.

Instead of finding refuge in the safety of his partners love, the pain deep inside of him drove him to lie, drink, and further hurt his partner. Tanner stuck it out with for 9 years until the "big event". Judd blacked out - and he was shocked to learn of the destructive things he did after waking up the next day.

After hitting rock bottom, Judd chose to seek help and find a better way to be and to be a better person.