first track of "OCD"

Gonna let this moment bend us into circles so we have no ends

in light of everything you think of being isn’t always knowing

something isn’t coming, something in you still denying love,

love is never wanting to be all alone and so we roam in worlds

unknown of bleak and dark disasters, near forgetting what we’re after

This is just one chapter burning faster than your dreams of ever after,

no more…

It’s a waste what we’ve done

It’s a waste how we’ve shown of what we both have become

If it was that simple

We could just change the world

If it was that simple, but it’s not people

Let it fall to waste

change the faith and scenery

It all amounts inside of me

Surround ourselves by enemies

We think we’re human beings

But never seem to do those things

You see the swarm, it comes, but no one leaves their homes

No one knows their neighbors, all against each other

So we make, ourselves saves, to world and its ways

If we were that simple

If God was that simple

If love was that simple

We could just change the world

But you’d be better away,

You’re better alone, You’re better away

My heart’s sinking, and folded, and shattered, to pieces

And my heart’s sinking deep down to the ocean floor

And my blood has given up on oxygen it needs no more

And your love was photosynthesis, but now that star is gone

So we live beneath the ocean and pretend to use our lungs

And my brain stopped thinking, complicating further more

And my soul is just imaged and it doesn’t know what for

Are we Alive?

Yeah, My heart is folded and the creases are

Sharper than edge of the earth or the boarder of her

And we packed ourselves wagon and we set out on this trip

But we both never realized it was us that weren’t equipped

And we finally reached the castle as the sun’s about to fall

And we got so dam excited that we broke down every wall

Now it’s just me and you and we saw what we didn’t want to see

Yeah, we got here fast, but getting back won’t be so easy

And my heart is shattered and the pieces are no more

Carried off by animals and dragged across the floor

And I could start to build a new one but now

What would that be for?

As soon as you think you have one

You meet the girl who ends it all

(I said now) Love is pain and pain is art

And you can live your whole life without knowing or how to start

(I said now)Love is pain and pain is art

See yourself on canvas made with your skin and now hers

(I said now) Love is pain and pain art

As soon as you will fall in love your world will rip apart

I remember weekends thinking we could last forever

I remember everything that you said was so clever

I remember our hearts fading like a burning ember

I remember wishing that our ties would soon be severed

I remember why I left you

This is the kinda shit that last forever cause I’ll remember why

Soul sinking under your flaws, I live under your floor, we stopped breathing a long time ago. Our reasons are old as ghost that live inside your haunted house and I can’t stay in this place anymore. The walls are beautiful, the pantries always full, and you know I love to dip in that swimming pool, “but I can’t sleep and I can’t think and I cannot do anything”, but wait in fear of what is near, the traps are there at every corner. “So I don’t move and I don’t speak and I try to not hear a thing”. Your house is haunted and I’m moving out. I’d rather live on the street, than live with your ghosts

Bitch you’re retarded, I hope that you die slowly

And no one’s there to miss you when you’re finial days are ending

You don’t know what you’re thinking, but you think you know it all

And no one else inside your life could ever have a clue

But you’re the only one who cannot see how dumb you really are

You’re like the fox in the cartoons that cannot catch the bird

Your elitist valley girl tone isn’t very cute,

I know a million stupid blonds who aren’t as dumb as you

It’s like you grew up smoking rocks and sniffing fumes from glue

A monkey with Down Syndrome is more logical than you

Not just retarded, but severely cold hearted

You could watch a child starve and laugh will eating muffins

You hate everything and you’re the only one with problems

But you just piss off the only ones who try to solve them

You do not understand anything I say,

And that can only mean, you’re not as smart as me

And now your life is over and I don’t know what you’ll do,

but the only thing I have to say is goodbye for life, fuck you

Yo, I didn’t mean that

I’m just messing with you girl like a copycat

But what you’ve said, there’s no taking back

See those listening; they don’t know the half of it

You were the most miserable thing I had to go though

When all I ever did was try to help you

All the songs that I’ve written, ya they meant nothing

It’s just art for the sake of those listening

(And) You will never know who you are

(And) You will never see who you are

And I know the balance has tipping,

I can’t confirm that I was listening to all your stupid problems and your feelings

It just, it gets so old, when there’s, there’s no reason

And I’m tired of hearing the same songs you’ve been singing

Over and over, “Oh poor me. I couldn’t find my chapstick this morning”

And everything you bitching is unworthy

And everything you think about is so boring

And I know I wasn’t always the best boyfriend

Looking back then, yeah some shit was embarrassing

And we can play the blame game, like Mr. West does

But it doesn’t take a jury to know that you were fucked up

I went through 5 months of your bullshit, before I ever said one word that was offensive

But to be fair

We both cared, for a minute, but you went on just faking and pretending

When I called it off you act like it was nothing

And I’m sorry that, I couldn’t solve all your problems

But the truth is, we were too much alike

And I knew this, when we first had a fight

I wish the best for you and your family

I hope that our time lives in your memory

And so much of what we lost was unnecessary

I’m thankful for the pure effect that you had on me

But you, will never know who you are

And you, will never see who you are

And you will never know you

I don’t need you and I can do this. Life is dead batteries and pockets full of lint, but I do what I want. Me and O'Connor can eat dinner at a fancy restaurant. On and off, nonchalant, tied in knots, hope I’m not on my way to insanity. I watched you kill pieces of yourself for vanity. It’s silly to me. You’re incapable of honesty and modestly, I saw a part of you inside of me, but it’s contrary to what I’m about sincerely. You can only scratch that surface when you make yourself an enemy, but I can do more and you can do less, and I could console my soul, pray and confess. None of us want to ever listen.

You always were too concerned with your disguise and the system. And you need um or else no one could ever stand you. Cause when they see through, they see that you’re phony; just dark pills, cockroaches, and demagoguery. Can’t get past me. I know all your secrets and their simple passwords. I’m past words. Your thoughts are absurd.

You didn’t know me and I knew too much of you and this song is what’s left when we crash like particles. I’m not as old on the outside as I am inside my head. Yeah bitch life is great, I’m fuckin chillin. While you’re sitin miserable think about your dead aborted children.

I hope that that’s offensive. I hope that the world knows what your debt is. I hope that every time you try, you fail and just regret it. I hope you know that everything I said is what I meant it to be. You were easy, like fucking you without a condom in the first week. Yup Life is great. I’m chillin on a boat in a lake while you hesitate to pay your phone bill late.

I’m burning bridges faster than this freestyle is ending In a free fall. I’m feeling the recall of these walls, that we’ve put up. It’s dumb luck that we’ve met up. When my phone rang in Hawaii I should have never picked up…

Sometime it’s better to let it go away

Sometimes it’s better to never know anything

This heart beat’s similar to drum beats only difference is it’s coming from dolls.

And all this waiting is killing, we only prepare to fall

This is the problem with our biological occurrences.

How do we win this without any of our aces?

No one knows why these forces are here, but here we are.

Challenged with their outcomes, remembering we all came from stars,

Our social complications mimic our made gods.

These human arrogates, just pieces of our broken results.

As we’re hovering alone, what do my molecules say to yours?

And never is it known, that’s why we cannot use our mouths.

Slowly sinking into distinct bodies try to produce offspring.

None of us are ever thinking, only chemicals reacting.

Life is like a sentence and this is just the adjectives.

And all of us are words, now which of them describes you best

Let’s put them all together and make a perfect paragraph.

And we can live forever as long as someone’s reading us.

Like how matter interacts, we just attract