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What’s good RRP family…

I’m gonna be real… I don’t even know if I’ve actually healed or if I just got better at pretending.

I got out of a 4-year relationship about a year ago. It ended BAD — lying, cheating, constant arguing… all of it. I was hurt, but I told myself I was done with that chapter and ready to move on.

Since then, I’ve been working, hitting the gym, leveling up financially… doing everything that looks like healing.

But here’s the problem…

I started talking to someone new recently, and I noticed something in me that I don’t like.

•I overthink EVERYTHING

•I don’t trust anything they say, even when they haven’t given me a reason not to

•I keep my guard up so high that I don’t even know how to be soft anymore

•And if I’m being honest… I still check my ex’s page sometimes

I tell people “I’m good”… but I don’t know if I actually am.

Part of me feels like I’ve grown.

But another part of me feels like I just built better walls.

Now I’m stuck wondering…

👉 Am I healing… or just hiding it better?

👉 And is it fair to even try to be in something new if I’m still carrying all this?

What would y’all do in my situation?

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