This is the introduction to my first podcast which launches at 00:00 on Sunday 4 October 2020. If anyone had told me in my 30's or even a year ago that at 43 I'd be launching a podcast and sharing my deepest darkest thoughts, feelings and experiences I would have questioned their sanity and told them to politely "go long" but here I am and here it is. I shall use this platform to share my writing as this process of automatic writing and recording continues to heal me on many levels. I also believe and hope that there maybe others that this reaches and connects with which allows them to begin or continue their own healing . My hope is that me being me which is transparent and authentic will show others that it's OK to do the same if that's what will help you. Due to the content within some of the episodes I attach a.*TRIGGER WARNING* as I recollect and revisit my own personal experiences with childhood sexual abuse, domestic violence, recreational drug taking, neglect and maternal alcoholism. If the content resonates then add me to your favourites to be notified of future scheduled podcasts. Deep inhale through the nose, slow steady exhale through the mouth. So let's do this together! Love Charmian.