(Trigger warning ⚠️) please be advised of some explicit animal cruelty content. I only share the disgusting nature of this topic to convey my message of my journey about what happened and where its taken me in my life and the questions I have because of it and where I'm at with it now. I normally would not talk about a sensitive subject nor would I want to trigger anyone else or hurt the ears and brains of others who are sensitive to this subject like myself but in order to understand me and my journey I have to get this off my chest. I apologize if this is sensitive for some listeners. Please skip this episode if it is too much. Thank you for understanding.