How does a mom get to a point where she leaves her kids husband and kids with no plan to come back? 

Why did I feel like leaving the 4 people I loved the most was the only option and 

why why why was a person who has tremendous faith and hope at the point of hopelessness?

I thought that if I left, that would distance me from the sadness, from anxiety and from the hopelessness. 

But the truth is, they were not the source of my stress and anxiety…