What if you honoured the season you were in?

How would treat yourself differently?

How would you talk to yourself differently?

Right now, I’m very much in a season that I’m unfamiliar with. And I want to share that experience with you in the hope that it will help you recognise and journey through yours.

What I've noticed, is that people are almost totally disconnected from the season that they're in.

Because we've been taught to "get on with it"; "be strong" or just accept that it's part of life. 

So let me start with a quote:

“We all know that if the seasons were the same, there would be no growth. We know that without winter there would be no spring. We know that without frosts there would be no bulbs and without the monsoon there would be no rice harvest. In the same way, we also know that without sorrow there would be no joy. Without pain there would be no healing. I think that's precisely where the beauty comes in. It comes in through the fruit of the seasons. He has indeed made everything beautiful in its time.” 
― Naomi Reed, My Seventh Monsoon: A Himalayan Journey Of Faith And Mission

I believe that my current season started Feb 2020, when I was in the room when the Dr told my dad his cancer care would now be palliative. It was a slow motion experience. I couldn’t see my dads face, but I could see my mum looking at my dad. I looked across at my twin sister and in that moment it was as if I could feel everybody’s reaction all in one go.

I believe my current season is the “grande finale” of the last 3 years and it finds me navigating the spectrum of emotions – sometimes in one day. From starting the day feeling clear and confident to ending it feeling like I have no idea what I’m doing with my life – and a tonne of tears inbetween.

 

Anxiety still visits and there are days where I have to coach myself out of bed.

 

I find it harder to maintain motivation, I get very stressed by being on social media and my head feels empty a lot of the time – not helpful at all for content and marketing.

 

I wanted to share ALL of this with you because I value transparency. If I’m experiencing this, I know I’m not alone. And If I can help even one person with this episode, it will be worth it.

 

ONCE YOU ACKNOWLEDGE YOUR SEASON, ASK YOURSELF WHAT YOU NEED

 

Before I finishup with today’s simple and powerful homework, here’s a quote from an incredible book that I’m re-reading in this season – Letting Go….

 

“Letting go involves being aware of a feeling, letting it come up, staying with it, and letting it run its course without wanting to make it different or do anything about it. It means simply to let the feeling be there and to focus on letting out the energy behind it. The first step is to allow yourself to have the feeling without resisting it, venting it, fearing it, condemning it, or moralizing about it. It means to drop judgment and to see that it is just a feeling. The technique is to be with the feeling and surrender all efforts to modify it in any way. Let go of wanting to resist the feeling. It is resistance that keeps the feeling going. When you give up resisting or trying to modify the feeling, it will shift to the next feeling and be accompanied by a lighter sensation. A feeling that is not resisted will disappear as the energy behind it dissipates.” 
― David R. Hawkins, Letting Go: The Pathway of Surrender