I don't want to sit on my hands anymore. Yellow!

October 15, 2023

I was in a dark spot (lol). I wasn’t hanging out with very many people, I would go out after 9 pm, and I would Doordash every meal. I was so emotional about my life that I would just talk to myself and driving around the valley. There were times I would drive all the way to Long Beach to just walk around, listening to music.

“My body wants to go everywhere at once,” is the truest statement of my 20s. “I don’t know what to do first, so I get stuck.” I freeze. I’m in that state of life again. It’s different though, I want to feel in this uncomfortable position I’m in and see what happens.

sorry for not uploading on-time. I’ve been stressed…but in a good way.

10/3/24

Living day to day, going to work, then home is always such a drag. Watch The Resident on Netflix. I'm on season three...

Black Hair was inspired by the Jada incident. I was at work on my lunch when I found out what had happened. I was surprised but not, after finding out it was because of the jokes made about Jada's hair condition. Me and my coworkers discussed for days who was in the wrong and who was in the right. Twitter was split in two on wether or not Will should of been arrested and charged with assault. But you want to know what I was thinking? Bruh why are we still joking about Black womens hair?????? 

Here is Black Hair.

This is protected of course under copyright because it was created and used for educational purposes of the Advanced Media class I took during my Spring semester. Also this episode isn't being profited.

Reviewing jobs to apply for since my seasonal position is set to end very soon. It's stressful. I'm insecure since I've "glown up." People have treated me completely different since. I hate when I come off as intimidating. Mini haul!

It is that time again when I deleted my top-used app and got in touch with reality. I'm going through a personal shift that makes me want to put down my phone and stare at a wall. My brain is always in daydream mode and Instagram just drowns that setting out.

I talk about eating disorders and share a story about having an accident at Six Flags. Fun right? I just want to be real on this podcast so I can live my life without overthinking. I guess I thrive on my embarrassing stories now that I've realized that it's just a "funny story to tell."

Learning to be more vulnerable again. I woke up in the middle of the night, early morning really - and couldn’t sleep.