This is the second most difficult episode for me, after episode 4. 

I left the emotion in again to be authentic and show how remembering trauma can affect someone. 

There's nothing graphic in this episode, but it may possibly trigger others to hear my story. I recall emotionally abusive treatment I received from my band director, which is common for people with autism to experience from any range of people. 

I would encourage you to watch Orion Kelly's video on "Mate Crime: Why Autistic People Are Targeted and How to Stop It." I had no concept of emotional abuse until fairly recently in my life. I believe it should be talked about more and to younger people so that it can be stopped and even prevented.  

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9Gpz_DfMiDM&t=48s (link to Orion Kelly's video mentioned above)  

Once I recover from the brain block I experienced during this recording, keep listening, because I'm able to remember the good aspects of my high school band experience, namely the leadership skills I realized and grew into during that time. 

Who knew that people with autism could be leaders, especially in a mixed group of neurotypical and neurodivergent people!