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There’s a moment in every real transformation where the old version of you is gone and the new one hasnt fully gotten here yet. That gap is where everything falls apart and all of the chaos in this transformation lies. Your routines stop working, your identity feels shaky, and you can’t quite remember who you were or picture who you’re about to be.

In this episode I’m talking about THAT space. The death of an old self, the birth of a new one, and all the chaos that lives in between.

If you’re in a season where everything feels like it’s breaking open, this one’s for you baby xx

There’s a moment in every real transformation where the old version of you is gone and the new one hasnt fully gotten here yet. That gap is where everything falls apart and all of the chaos in this transformation lies. Your routines stop working, your identity feels shaky, and you can’t quite remember who you were or picture who you’re about to be.

In this episode I’m talking about THAT space. The death of an old self, the birth of a new one, and all the chaos that lives in between.

If you’re in a season where everything feels like it’s breaking open, this one’s for you baby xx

We spend so much energy asking how to expand. More clients, more visibility, more income, more of everything. But the real question is why you keep shrinking back every time you get close.

In this episode, I break down what’s actually happening when you pull away from the very thing you want. We talk about subconscious triggers, the patterns you created to keep yourself safe, and why those patterns made total sense at one point in your life. Then we look at how they show up now: the procrastination, the second guessing, the slowing down RIGHT when momentum starts to build.

If you’ve ever wondered why you know exactly what to do and still don’t do it, this one’s for you. Because once you understand why you contract, you can finally stop fighting yourself.

After three months away, I'm talking about what change actually requires of you, and why nobody warns you that transformation feels ugly before it ever feels good.

I get honest about the conversation I had to have with myself: about my outcomes, my behaviors, the patterns I kept repeating. The stuff that's uncomfortable to look at straight on because that honesty is what real change requires.

If you're in your own messy middle right now, this one's for you baby xx

In this episode I'm getting honest about my wound of inadequacy and how it showed up in every relationship I had through overgiving, overperforming, and self abandoning in ways I didn't even recognize at the time. Where it came from, how it kept me stuck in relationships where I was never really receiving, and what it actually took to start changing that at the root.Note!!!! battery died and some technical difficulties cut this one a little short, but we're going deeper on this next week ❤️‍🔥

Everyone talks about living in alignment like it's peaceful and beautiful. Nobody tells you it can feel like your life is falling apart.This episode is the honest conversation. Choosing who you really want to be and having the courage to actually look at who you are right now is one of the hardest things you'll ever do. And that's exactly why you keep avoiding it.But it's also the only way your life changes.This episode is your permission to stop pretending it's supposed to be easy and start giving yourself the grace to do it anyway.

You're stuck because you're trying to fix something that was never broken. In this episode, I'm breaking down why we spend so much energy finding solutions for our feelings when feeling is literally the most human thing we do. The problem isn't your emotions. The problem is your resistance to them. When you stop trying to escape what you're feeling and start letting yourself actually feel it, everything begins to actually change.

You have a self problem, not a strategy problem.

In this episode we're having the conversation really nobody wants to have the one about the gap between who you say you want to be and who you actually are. About why change feels so hard even when you know exactly what needs to shift. About the identity you've outgrown and the one you're too scared to step into.

If you've been waiting to feel ready, this one's for you.

Nobody tells you that becoming who you're meant to be can feel like losing everything. When you decide to step into a new identity life has a way of shaking loose everything that no longer belongs. Relationships feel different. Your routine stops working. The things that used to comfort you suddenly feel hollow. It's disorienting, it's lonely, and it can make you wonder if you made a mistake. You didn't. This is actually a sign that everything is going right for you.This podcast is for the people in that in between space, doing the hard, unglamorous work of becoming.

Sometimes getting what you want doesn’t feel pretty. Sometimes it feels messy, vulnerable, and a little uncomfortable.In this episode, I’m talking about the strange moment when the things you’ve been asking for actually start showing up and instead of feeling pure excitement, something in you wants to protect it, hide it, or even push it away.Because if we were fully ready for the things we say we want, we’d probably already have them.This is just an honest, open conversation about what I’m moving through right now a little "putty minded", a little messy, and very real.