BDSM Reimagined

In one of his favourite and probably most important episodes, Michael uses the video essay "How Fight Club Turns Men into Space Monkeys" by the YouTube channel "Like Stories of Old", to discuss how it parallels the dynamics of dominance and submission, particularly the appeal of the "unconflicted" alpha figure. Michael reflects on human instincts around hierarchy, the yearning for role models, and how individuals surrender their individuality in the pursuit of symbolic immortality. He emphasises the importance of critically examining the motivations behind following dominant figures and how these connections offer a sense of meaning and escape from existential fears.

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In this episode, Michael updates listeners on his recent experiences with dating and navigating the complexities of financial domination (fandom). He shares reflections on a fragile connection he formed with someone he met, noting the emotional highs and lows of the dynamic. The episode delves into the struggles of finding authentic connections in the kink and dating scenes, as well as the psychological aspects behind his desires. Michael also touches on the impact of therapy and his inner child work, highlighting the intricate layers of guilt, power, and control that shape his experiences.

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In this episode, Michael talks about his recent break up and where that has led him.

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In this episode, Michael discuss how meeting someone has potentially changed his sexual identity. However, it can't be that easy... can it?

He also gives a brief update on his inner child work and how this may have played a part.

I talk with Phil, the creator of the Master Slave Lifestyle website and podcast (masterslavelifestyle.com), about my journey into and out of Findom.

This episode premiered on his podcast Jan 2024, recorded late 2023.

Amendment: Around 6 minutes, I state that shame is noted to be a motivator for persons who seek sex workers and persons who are involved with chemsex. This is untrue. This is only the case if the behaviour is ego syntonic/compulsive in the subjective experience of the individual; otherwise, enjoy! :)

In this short yet deeply personal episode, we embark on a candid journey through Michael's latest therapeutic explorations, focusing on the intricate relationship between kink, shame, and mental health. Michael bravely shares his evolving understanding of how deeply-rooted shame, stemming from childhood, has shaped his perceptions of intimacy, sexuality, and self-worth. With raw honesty, he discusses the challenging process of his shame—recognising the harmful belief that he is fundamentally flawed. As Michael delves into the complexities of his kink and sexual desires, he confronts the internalised stigma and the daunting task of reconciling his interests with societal norms.

In this episode, Michael updates us on his experiences with escorting. He expresses a desire to minimise digital engagement and return to simpler pleasures as part of a digital detox. He then delves into his kink journey, continuing to talk about working with his therapist to understand his needs in relationships, intimacy, and sex, highlighting his struggles with being submissive and the fear of narrowing his sexual desires. He explores the root of these issues through inner child work, addressing beliefs formed in childhood about submission and worthiness. Michael explores how his narrative touches on the conflict between his desire for dominance and submission, the influence of childhood experiences on his sexual behaviour, and his efforts to balance his kink interests with personal growth and self-understanding.